I was taken aback and said there was nothing under my dress. I started to question her and she said that she saw that something inside me turning around. But one day while I was cleaning the house I could feel my cousin staring at me. He was not violent and has never taken off my clothes by force. Maybe I thought it was normal because he was my father. I cannot explain why I accepted and why he did it. Soon after this terrible experience my father started to have sex with me. I did not tell anybody about my traumatic experience. To my surprise, he did not take me to the shop but to a bush nearby and he raped me there. I met him a couple of times and one day he asked me to accompany him to the shop. In fact a neighbour told me he was madly in love with me.
I don’t know if I accepted because I was not a virgin. I really cannot explain how it all started but there was no violence and he did not force me. I was only nine years old when my father started having sex with me.
